What would you do?

What would you do if i was dead?
Would you lie awake at night asking yourself why? "Me and not her?"
Would you regret all the hurtful things that you said?
Would you even notice?
Would you even care?

I am face with so many chioces
I know right from wrong
but i don't seem to care
for the pain is just to real

The walls are coming closer and closer everyday i don't know even know how i make it thou everyday
why does it have to be this way
things are to messed up
Life is Crazzzy as hell
God help me please.....