Mixed up

I'm so confused,
about my thoughts,
about my feelings.

My moods keep changing,
I'm happier than ever,
I don't wanna live any longer.

My emotions are mixed,
I wanna hide myself from the world,
but wait... I want them to see.

I don't know how to deal,
it keeps changing and rearranging,
and now every thing's standing still.

©Lucy

*weird poem... i know*