Where is my smile...

Where is my smile?
Have you seen it?
I have not seen my smile for roughly as long as you have been around
You used to be the only inspiration why a smile would form on my face
But in recent times the love you have for me I presume has been misplaced
I constantly hold on to this pain, hurt and confusion
You keep feeding me with deception to keep me in this state of delusion
Wait is that my smile?
Only for a split second in time when we were in bed
You kissed my neck then took my hand and gently led
And our bodies harmonize each other moving in a rhythmic motion
It is like I am in a spell or maybe you have slipped me some love potion
As you pull my hair back to look straight into my eyes and murmur I love you
For a brief moment in time
I could feel your love
But quickly actuality sets in
When did all this hurt first begin?
I guess it had to be around the same time she called my house
No I think it was when I found her number
No it had to be when I found all the pictures
I really do not know when my smile left me
I guess when my eyes opened and I first began to see
Did you ever truly care?
Has your body ever ached for me when I was not near?
I am taking my smile back
Not only my smile but also my peace of mind
I started looking the other day and I will not stop until I find
That peace of mind and smile that I once possessed
Because I know without you I am still truly blessed

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