Healing

I say my pain is exceptional
I say I cover it with my smile
I say I do not need to talk to anyone
I say all the pain is my healing

I say everyone is damned
I say I hate almost everything
I am always talking about how bad the world is
I always say if people would only do
this it could be different

I never once say this person is trying hard to make a difference
I never talk about how we are slowly on the wheel of change and the world is healing
I never say I love you to my friends and family
I never tell them about all the times I have cried

I never say a word to make them understand
All I do is say they do not care and I am the one who does not try
I hide behind my resentment
I hide behind my blade
I hide behind all my scars and pain

I hide behind the tears I cry
I hide myself behind my smile
I hide my life from the world

I am the one to blame for all my pain
I do it to myself all the time
I will be happy then start thinking up the past
Just to make myself sad

Not anymore more
I will throw away my blood rusted blade
take Aspirin for all my scars and pains
Wash the blood from my hands
I will live my life no more hiding in resentment toward the world
No more!
I would do that.
if this was like that
Because it will never be that way

All I can do is throw out my depression and begin live my life the way it was intended.