Oblivious

Every night I cry myself to sleep never wanting to wake up.
I have a problem with thinking that it was my fault.
I dont want to be here, I guess its just my luck.
I always thought that you loved me with all your heart

Now I just want to die and I dont want to live at all.
I cant take it anymore, please say this aint so
It was such a long time ago, but I just wish I could forget
I have such a hard time pretending like nothings wrong

Things started to get better, I moved on with my life
but then I saw you and started to remember.
It all came back to me and I wanted to cry, it was terrible
I just wanted to die.

No, wait I didnt do anything wrong, you should die.
What you did to me was horrible, and all you do is lie.
I wish I could tell someone and they would just shoot you
Then theyd take the gun they shot you with and kill me too

So when Im gone and sleeping in heaven
I want you to know that I was only seven.
When you made my life a living hell
And then told me that I could never tell

It was the biggest burden that anyone could ask
but now Im going to face my biggest task.
Letting everyone know what you did to me
Although, before I say anything, please just let me be.

Im going to tell my dad, but I hate seeing him sad
I know he loves me and my mom does too
Im really afraid when he finds out, what he'll do
Not to me, but to you.
Im going to tell him how I feel, I wont lie, its true

Too bad the one that hurt me was my hero, it was you
My dad...went from a ten to a zero and never knew
In your eyes, you werent doing anything wrong
You never hurt me, it was never that long

But in all truth, it felt like an eternity
I hate being trapped
and by you especially
Will you ever stop hurting me
No....I guess not
your only crime was loving me
**cause you would never hurt your little girl.**