Goodbye

Holding in the screams as i fight back the tears
so many emotions so many words all held in
my heart is torn apart by this raging fear
as emotions rise beneath my skin
i look at you and for once i realise
that my whole life wont be spent with you
i have to tell you bye and though i wish not
this is one thing that i have to do
i can no longer put you through this
you shouldnt have to put up with me
you deserve so much better than what im gving
and so today im going to set you free
i know that you shouldnt have to wait for me
and that is the only reason im letting go
no matter what i will forever love you still
and thats something i hope youll always know
i need so badly to tell you good bye
for you truely dont deserve to this crap
but the more i began to think about it
the more i realise that with out you im trapped
trapped and hidden within my self
with nowhere to run to and nowhere to hide
trapped and hidden in a world of fear
i see now that to myself i have lied
i cannot live without you i will never say good bye
if you really cant stand this shyt from me
then i shall wait until the day
when you will say good bye to me