So much shit has taken place
in my own hell, my life
that has led me to this
callous state of mind
i dont like this anymore than you
i would love to be
your average 17 year old kid
but for some reason i cant
i am trapped within my own mind
always thinking about shit
shit that just depresses me more
i dont like being alone
it gives me too much time to think
but i messed up
so i have to learn to be on my own
to control my thoughts
to disregard the fact
that this is hell
