Broken Promises

I didn't have the heart to tell you
That I never meant what I said
Although I mean it when I say I love you
I can't promise you won't find me dead

I said that I wouldn't hurt myself
That I wouldn't inflict any pain
But day after day you find me alone
Left alone trying to strike the vain

You thought that I wouldn't do any harm
That this was just an act
That this was just my cry for attention
But you never knew this for a fact

You never knew how deep they went
How much they always bled
But I don't blame you for not knowing
Because you never listened to what I said

You though it was an ugly habit
And I should drop to make you look good
So I'm not going to stop this
As if I ever could

Samantha