What If?

What if I don't live to see tomorrow?
Will he know how I feel?
Will he miss me at all?
Will time for him stand still?

What if he left and never came back?
Could I live with the pain?
Would I drift into seeming unconsciousness?
Would he even remember my name?

What if my world comes crashing down?
Will he be able to piece it back together?
Will he kiss the tears from my eyes,
or will his feelings change like the weather?

What if the desire in his eyes was my imagination?
What if it wasn't?
Will he end my torture and say he loves me too?
What if he doesn't?

What if I dreamed a life that isn't real?
Will reality quickly seep in?
Will my heart disintegrate into ash,
or worse-will we never be more than friends?

(c) Mary Barren