Hurtful words

What do you want from me?
Why do you pretend to care?
Do you want my life?
You have it already and it`s not fair

You ruined everything
And killed my spirit
Now all I want to do
Is make a date with a bullet

This morning you said something
That really stabbed me in my heart
You said that I was the cause for the accident
Cause of my lies from the start

Don`t you really see
I`m sorry for what I did
And you know that this is true
But you never see anything from my point of view

I try to avoid you and dad
Cause I can`t stand to be around people
Who keep hurting me
And who pretend to care

Now I walk around with a razorblade
And cut myself every chance I get
Cause you say hurtful things
And cause me regret

Everyday and night, blood is all I see
And one day when you see me dead
Don`t be too surprised mum
Cause your hurtful words got to me