My Secret Heartache

You make me so sad
And I feel so bad
Because you don't even know
That you're hurting me so

Everyday I wear a smile
Everyday I make a joke
Everyday I have a laugh
But none of it is real

I lay awake at night
Thinking of you and her
And wishing you were here with me
Instead of there with her

My heart is braking
It won't stop aching
Don't you know,
You're hurting me so?

I've made my decision
I pick up the knife
And make an incision
This is the end of my life

Nobody knows my secret heartache
Nobody knows how much i hurt
Nobody knows I could kill myself
Nobody knows that I lay here dying...