Raped at the age of 3 ( mostly tru)

I was blind, so little in deed,
You decided to take advantage of me.
I couldn’t see what was going on, but even if I did I wouldn’t understand,
For I was a little girl all alone, at home, with a babysitter.
With me in the palms of his hands.

I was so stupid, though I don’t blame myself,
All I know is you did wrong,
And you should burn in hell.
How could you do this, you were a mere stranger to me
Though my parents trusted you to take care, of my brother and me.
But you failed your duties,
And should be behind bars,
Who ever, where ever you are.
I wish I was older at the time,
To understand the truth,
To stop what was going to happen, to put up a fight against you.
Where you touched me, was so unkind,
Why don’t you understand I was ready at the time?
I wouldn’t be ready for a hundred years,
I didn’t want to be raped, though I held back my fear.
I wish I could be in court,
To testify against you,
So you don’t do the same thing to little girls that you once did to me too.
I hate having to live with the feeling like its going to happen again,
I want to trust others and know well from bad,
But after it was over, I had to live with the aftershock all these years,
I had suck it in and wipe my tears,
I want to be stronger, know better and help people in the same boat,
Tell them there is another way, not to sink, but to float.
Now that I have told my story, I hope it gives people options;
They don’t have to be the victim, just use all your powers to fight back,
To stop what is going to happen,
For I don’t want to see you also up in heaven,
For I was weak,
and so little in deed,
and that day my babysitter killed and raped me.

well like i said, most of it is tru, though i'm still alive to tell the story that i have been hiding behind a mask all these years..
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