Too Bold

I wish you were mine to love
But we all know I`m yours to use,
To throw away like yesterdays garbage
And pick me up again when you chose

I try to convince myself
That I`m more to you then that,
More then a toy resting on your shelf
But I don`t buy it anymore

So I`ll just keep pretending,
I`ll tell myself that you care
I`ll just keep on believing the lies
You cough up for not being there

This scene is getting old
Seeing you and her
My thirst for death becomes too bold
And I reach for my knife one final time