I'm Sorry I let You Down

I'm sorry you had to see my scars
the first day I've seen your face in awhile.
but so much has happened that its the only way i could escape.
I tried so many different things so my thoughts wouldn't think of pain.
but the only thing on my mind was putting that knife to my vein.
but i thought about you and the other ones who have been there for me lately.
and there was no way i could do the unthinkable and slit my very wrist.
but instead of that i cut and burned my skin.
laughing as the scars slowly started to appear.
sometimes the blood slowly squeezes through my skin.
leaving scars that only you and my loved ones fear.
I'm Sorry That I let You Down Jared,
but i thought my life was done.
but i thought of you and i couldn't give it all...

***this is for my uncle Jared who is also my best friend...he's seen my scars from my depression and seems disgusted to look at me...maybe someday I'll show him this and everything will go back to normal!

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