I keep it inside

See,
Sometimes I bury these insecurities deep inside,
I close down these feelings,
because I no longer have someone to trust in and confide.

then I forget what it's like to hurt,
I learn not to cry inside,
I start to smile again,
and I like to believe all that sadness died.

then I walk around,
with this happy smile,
and I forget,
its only going to last a while.

and when I fall again,
it hurts like hell,
and I cry alone,
with no one to tell.

the scars re open,
the blood once again flows,
I tell myself to grow up,
and I bottle up all those tears, and inside is where it goes..