Time and time again
I don't know what to say anymore
My heart has tried to heal
but then you strike it one more blow
I can't take this anymore
my world is crashing down
we fight, you yell
I cry, you walk away
these small balls of fire
escape the confinement of my eyes
the tears BURN as they run down my cheeks
my body shudders, ready to break down
I can't hold back any longer
I try to hide the hurt
I try to hide the anger
Crying is the ultimate weakness
punishment must commence
but I find hesitation
my promise reflects in my shattered thoughts
punishment is a stronger crime than crying
What do I do now?
no cuts, No blood, No redemption
Why am I so relieved?
I wanted to be punished
I wanted to feel as though I'd suffered a consequence
Why must his picture flash in my mind?
Why must his words block my thoughts?
I hope this makes him happy
I hope this makes him proud
Because I stopped this for ONLY him.
