Seeing my life vanish before my very eyes knowing i was the cause to be put in a position that is between life and death regretting all mistakes made and done knowing nothing can be changed or fixed always letting his stupidity get in the way of the relationship all he can think about is how much more pain he will have to bare of his own stupidity losing the girl he loved so very much feeling his heart shrink in size while still wondering why hes still alive sees the knife on the table grabbing it with pride closes his eyes to see the last image in his life which was his one true love Nikki cutting deep into his wrist as he says the last words in his life ill always love you Bethany Nichole Schmid.
