Can Never

I can never spit out my feelings to you,
Can never say those words,
That I hide for so long.
I can never tell you,
What I want,
What I need,
To make me feel whole again.
I feel so empty,
So lonely and heart broken,
That I don't know how much longer,
I'm going to be like this.
Maybe if only I say,
That I love you still,
That I want you back in my life,
And I need you like before,
Then maybe my life wouldn't be so miserable,
And I wouldn't have to keep missing you,
So much more than I did before.
But its so hard for me,
Because I can never spit out my feelins to you,
Can never say those words,
That I hide for so long.
I can never tell you,
What I want,
What I need,
To make me feel whole again.

Dedicated to: my 1st ex