Distant shadow

I cut myself for me,
i cut myself for pain,
my blood runs from my tears,
my blood runs from my veins,
i just speak in whispers,
that no one can hear,
i run from my pain,
i run from my fear,
i scream for my life,
i scream for the thrill,
i wish i had a knife,
to make one small kill,
of a girl who does not care,
of a girl who does not want to be fair,
a girl who if i look in the mirror,
i can see her breath,
i can see her shadow,
the shadow of death.