The Great Pretending

I thought you cared
i guess the joke was on me
how can you look in someones eyes and pretend
this seems to come so easy for you
move on i hear
sorry you thought me as pathetic
sorry for being there for you
i had one weakness
and this you knew
you always asked me to reveal painful sides of myself
i hold back from this to save myself
i opened up
you hurt me the way i feared
such a nightmare you created
the only nightmare that has been burning inside of me
you tare me up with your words
the words you were too weak to say in my face
would you have liked it better for me to have rejected you
you always draw closer to the ones that treated you bad
ill always have questions remaining
why you bothered to pretend
it was a lie
memories and time wasted
you need an award for the role you played
i opened up to the wrong person
the only memories i have
the coldness you gave out
and screwed up feelings that have been created in me
a constant voice in my mind of a friendship that was a mistake