My veil of flowers

I know that I hold pain
my life is far worse than it seems
but this I don't show
I won't let them win

I hide behind a veil
one made up of flowers
roses and wild daisy's
tulips , honeysuckles and sweet buttercups

they shelter me
from the stench of my inner self decaying
because I'm dying inside
but this I will not show

you can rip away my veil
shred it into pieces
but it's powerful scent lingers
saving me from deconstruction

all of you, see me as I should be
as I once truly was
you will never see the fear
that resides in my heart

you will never hear the weeping
that constantly sounds in my ears
nor will you ever listen to the voices
that speak the truth in my mind

I won't let you know
what inside, I really have become