I lost this guy
to my best friend
we dated for three years
he was my first
at the end of freshman year/beginning of the summer
i went on myspace to look at his profile
and add him to my friends list
and there it is
proof that they were sleeping together
i cried for days
then i thought of something better
i took all the bottles of pills out of my medicine cabinet
i took everything there was to take
the last thing i remember before i blacked out was the song i was listening to
everything changes by staind
i woke up to bright lights and worried faces
i was in the hospital and apparently i had been out for a few days
i saw a shrink for a while
she didnt help
three weeks after my incident
i was in the mall and who did i see
him
with her
they were all over eachother
i went home and slit my wrists
i dont remember what happened after that
its been about a year since everything happened
i have a new boyfriend and off the pills
im happier than ive ever been
