Wat its lke to be hurt

I get all the looks as im in the hallway door, but slll the icy stares i get, i cannot stand anymore. i cry in the place that no one can see, in the darkness of my mind where i can hide from me. but no one sees my pain, if they do they dont care, the words that flows around me are so hard to bare. i cannot stand the pain, this is the final straw,im tired of the pain i feel illl end it once and 4 all. i hold the razor to my wrist, as tears stream down my face,im soory i let oyu down mommy this fear i could not chase. i push it down and bit my lip, and see what i have done, my wrist is now bleeding \"what have i done?\" i think that iwas stupid that i should have tried to live, instead of holding up inside, holding it within. but the curtains start to fall and the blurriness is deep, i do not even try to talk, or even try to speak. i close my eyes and cry, i made the terrible mistake, because i have so much to live for, and had to take the blame....