Will i ever heal

I keep all this pain locked up inside,
I try to run i try to hide,
It\'s hard to face what i really feel,
will i every be happy,? will i ever heal?
The scars remind me everyday,
how bad i felt in everyway,
Whats happening to me? i dont understand,
I feel like im in an unknown land,
You have no idea how many tears i've cried,
tears that show what i feel inside,
When all is dark, you are light,
You help me stand, u help me fight,
where would i be without u in my life?
Still on the floor with that knife?