Just useless words.....

As mascara stains my pillow,
I lay here tired and lost,
Dazed in my own little world,
While reality takes its cost,

I hold it all together,
With this tiny little thread,
But then it slowly unravels,
My thoughts left dry and dead.

I no longer care what u say,
Ive completely given up,
I thought it would be better this way,
But I still feel totally stuck,

Im wrapped in surrounding darkness,
Staring blankly at the wall,
I no longer want to be here
Ive had my final fall

So I just observe the days go by,
Is it wrong to wonder why?