Wishing, Hoping, Praying

Wishing
For everything to work out
I just want the madness to end
I'm so lost
So confused
I cant take it anymore
Crying myself to sleep for the fourth night in a row
Hoping that I can make it through the day
With maybe only thinking of you once or twice
To stop the thoughts
To stop the mind wondering feelings
I dont know how much I can take until I brake
Hoping that in the end I will be okay
That whatever decision is made that is will made for a reason
That whatever happens we will still be friends
Praying that everything will be okay again
I want help
I want to know that everything is true
Not a false thought
That its you wont be suicidal when and if anything happens
That I will be your run to girl
Not your rebound girl
That I am strong enough to handle what is going to happen
That youre going to be strong and not do something stupid
I just am Wishing, Hoping, Praying