I feel

I feel empty inside
Not knowing if i should live or die
Because everything is going wrong in my stupid life
Hurting all the people who I Love
Living a huge lie
Living with people who dint even know me deep inside
Wondering at nights " should i kill myself"
Feeling sorry for myself
Thinking that my family the world would be better if I killed myself
Thinking days pass by and all i think about is how and when can i do this to myself
Crying at nights thinking what I have been threw in my childhood life
Wondering if i can survive another second,minute,a day in my life
Thinking about how many people have hurt me deep inside
Thinking why should I waste my time thinking about life if i can go right ahead and kill myself
People say I'm stupid that i should not do this but they have not lived my life and they don't know how i feel deep inside
I have never felt right living this life
I feel sad,mad,stupid,hurt,empty,a lie,pain in my life
Thats why i have no choice then to kill myself