Not sure if it\'s Rape or Murder

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Not sure if its rape or murder

Im the shadow by which your dreams are haunted.
Dont cry now, am I the one that you wanted?
No, Im definitely not depressed today.
The smile on my face is here to stay.
I love and I hate but its all the same to me.
Its time for you to become what I want you to be.
Bite your lips, so tender, full and neat.
Do it hard and taste your silky blood so sweet.
Use your faith to wipe your tears.
I am everything that lives in your fears.
God I want to turn you inside out.
And show you what the world is really about.
I dont know if I want to f* you or kill you.
I guess I could do both one and two.
Play my knife in ribbons over each breast.
Its your porcelain sanity thats being put to test.
Force my fingers up inside with hellish force.
Make sure my nails cut all the way up in, of course.
It hurts like hell with each hard rough stroke of pride.
I hope something inside of you has finally died.
Rip open your chest and take the silicone out.
Wheres your God now, hes gone no doubt.
Slice along your belly and rub your body with gasoline.
Pull out your intestines and paint a red mural obscene.
Your expressions of agony only make me burn hotter.
The aim is fun and the point of the game is useless slaughter.
Take a hammer and make you swallow your teeth.
Such pretty eyes darling lets see whats underneath.
Smell your blood dripping like turpentine.
Feel your mind crack under my hand like every bone in your spine.
Brush the lighter against your skin thats slick like oil.
Watch your pretty flesh start to blacken and boil.
Too weak to scream now but it hurts so bad.
Seeing you in flames ALMOST makes me feel kind of bad.
You kneel and pray burning on bloody knees.
I laugh as you scream to your god Please!
Hes not listening, honey- no one is.
So step back and see life for what it is.
Its all a test, a game that we play.
Tearing our emotions out in a vast array.
Youre all alone and no ones going to help- no one cares.
Alone in the dark, you are caught unawares.