UNREAL

I remember that day so vividly and some times thoughts come back to me

We were all out riding like we always do
Poking, playing and making fun of you.

It was just the four of us; we had not hung in awhile
And I remember the sign say just 9 more miles.

Now on my lips is a teary smile, whenever I think back
Because there is so many things that I would change if only I could go back.

But I cant go back and now your gone
There is so many things that I did wrong.

I wish I would have made you wear your belt.
I wish you knew how bad I felt.

I wish I could have you here today
I wish we would have gone the other way.

I wish I could hear you laugh once more
I wish the car would have hit MY door.

I just wish you had one more chance!
One more chance to smile
One more chance to live
In a heartbeat I would give
My life up for you!

It happened so fast and yet so slow
I remember screaming to you, Please dont go!
But you were already too far gone to hear me

A part of my heart remains hollow
This terrible grief is hard to swallow.

You laid in front of me, blood dripping down your head
I would have gave or promised anything
If it were me instead.
I squeezed your hand
Assuring myself that you were not dead.

I thought I heard you breathing
I tried some CPR
If only we would not have got in that stupid car!

I couldnt let go of you
I held you nice and close
But you know what stood out the most
Not a single tear fell from my eye
Somehow I felt I could not cry,
That if I held them in you would not die.

Somehow the police came, I think that was true
I heard the sirens, but I was focused on you.

They made me let you go, thats when I started to cry
The only word I could suppress is the simple word why?

Why did god choice us on that cold, spring night?
Taking the life of a sixteen year old surely cant be right.

I would not believe them, when they told me you were dead,
It was just impossible to function in my head
That I would never be able to see you again.

I would never be able to see;
Your eyes light up when you smile,
Your stubborn look you do every once in awhile.
Hear you laugh with joy and merriment
Your special glow from enjoyment
Joking having fun
Laughing as you run
Your face when you whine
Definitely when your angry cause your wasting time.

I missed you as soon as I let go of your hand
I fell to the ground, not able to stand!

When I watched them roll you away
I knew I would never find the right words to say
To explain the feeling I felt that day!

Now it has been a year since that day
When everything in my life was shattered
And taken away.
With only one crash my best friend was taken away from me
And the pain still hurts tremendously!
And a part of me
Died that night also!

Four teens out for a drive
Not knowing that one wont survive
And that three would have to go on living their lives
As if nothing had ever happen.

You just never know what tomorrow may bring,
But that is the beauty of everything.
Live life to the fullest
Because no one is guaranteed a TOMMORROW!
Everyday is a new gift
Its unreal, but you have to believe this before it is too late!

Please comment on this, because it would mean a lot to me.
thanks tiffany