Reality???

The sky is clear and baby blue,
But I see it cloudy and gray.
The flowers are blooming all around me,
But I see dead and shrived bits of what used to be a rose.
The radio plays an upbeat love song
But I hear pain and suffering.
The air is warm as I sweat,
But I feel icy as I shiver.
He had a sweet taste I love,
But I taste only bitterness.
Pleasing perfume fills the room,
But I smell destructing fire.
She smiles at me,
But I can only understand the sobs.
The world is fine, nothing is wrong,
But my mind depresses me.