Loves Lamentations2

\'It\'s not a question of love or of affection. I can give those
and I can take them. I feel pain like everyone else. I need to touch
and be touched. But if someone asks me, \'Are you alright?\' I can
not answer no. I can not say, \'Help me.\' My cry for help is long
lost and forgotten. I\'ve given mostly given up screaming; my
throat aches with the dryness of the air. My body screams for it
to stop...but I can not....

Love Stops For No One
Yes my dear,
But love stops for no one,
It sneaks up on you,
And holds you forever.
And you have to admit,
You love loves tender hold,
Never letting go of you,
As if holding you safely forever.

And soon you\'ll find yourself,
Addicted to love\'s hold,
Wanting it forever,
To never let go.

And forever love will stay,
Living fast and living strong,
Never letting go,
As it plays their song.

Closing my eyes against the pain in my chest, a silence reaches
my loudly beating heart. Lost in reality or was it a dream? Lost in life
or was it...death? Crying myself to sleep tonight or was it today?
Everything blends together like one great blur. Things come and go
and then I\'m lost again in the world of pain and reality. How could
I let myself go this far...How could I let myself deceive me this much?
Nothing seems right anymore; I\'m not what I\'m supposed to be.
Just a girl sitting here telling you her prayer....that will never. Come.
True. You can hope and pray all you want because the world
will never change. I long for the day death grips my throat and I am no longer
allowed to breathe. I long for the darkness of death that closes my eyes
and my soul drifts away...

The Two Mirrors

Quietly I stroll to my mirror,
Looking inside I see are all my fears.
What souls, so placid and cold,
Passing across my mirrors folds.
I lean in close and look in deep,
Praying to find something to keep.
Back and forth, my eyes do find,
Something to satisfy my withered mind.
Reaching into the cold shimmering glass,
My hand sinks in all too fast.
I find my arm on the other side,
TO find what it is my heart abides.
My body steps through with a shuttering cry,
And I look around in fine surprise.
I glace about once more,
To find what my dear heart adores.
Something floating past my ear,
I reach out hoping this object will banish my fears.
My hands close around a mysterious thing,
And as soon as it does, it begins to sing . . .
I bring this glowing picture to my face,
And look at it with great growing haste.
I find myself looking in a mirror,
And realize I\'ve found my greatest fear.
Reflected back to me,
Is something I never wanted to see;
A little girl bleeding from the wrist,
With a suicide note written in bliss.
So I lean closer and stare so more,
To find this little girl on the floor,
Staring at me with eyes open wide,
Begging me to be by her side.
But as much as I wish I could be,
I can not be, for this girl is me.

Hope You Enjoyed It ... And Read It All...

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