Hopes

When days are nights
And nights are dark
When I can't see anything in sight
Not even a little spark

I think of you and what you do
And I wonder If you are doing the same
I had hope of something called me and you
Holding hands and crossing narrow lanes

I had hope of us living in heaven
Forgetting all the world around us
All I did is imagine and imagine
That one day you will hold me when I'm a wuss

I had hope of you at least realizing
The tonnes of feelings towards you
I had hope of you hearing the feelings colliding
Hitting my heart making it blue

I have always been optimistic
To every hope I have hoped
But this is the time where I should be realistic
Because every hope I had have been dropped

And now feelings of depression became a cover
But you still don't realize how depressed I can be
And how stupid I am to be a lover
When I know that you are not for me

I thought that we could be together
Holding ourselves so tight
But I've shed all my brain cells from thinking and became a shedder
I can no more imagine you lighting my way at night

I have no more hope inside my heart
All I have is a bit of faith
That one day I will be ripped apart
From loving you and being ignored by fate

And now I shall say good bye
To all the hopes and wishes I had
The only hope I still have is to die
And see if you will realize and feel sad