Life after today

Somedays i dont feel like breathing,
sometimes it's like i have no feeling,
lifes so hard,
my heart stops beating,
i lye alone to cry,
i pray to god to die,
the pain aches to my bones,
the lies are so lonely and cold,
all hope is lost again,
somedays i wish didnt begin,
but you stand by me and smile,
while i sit and cry for a while,
in my private dementia again,
wanting nothing more than a friend,
but no matter how i try,
it builds up so deep inside,
hope never to see daylight again,
i watch the moon die,
i watch the stars bleed,
i watch the hands of god pierce every part of me,
leaving me empty,
oh so cold,
whats left is the pieces and not the mold,
no you cant fix me my friend,
don\'t even try,
you will never win,
for i have lost the battle to my mind,
i can\'t give in,
so i write,
you will never understand my pain,
only a smile is for yesterday,
when i was happy forgetful of sin,
i miss the colors of my life,
i miss the laughs,
i miss the fights,
i miss the love i used to say,
i hate who i am,
for all of yesterday!