Moods of My Life

I think of all the years
that I held back all the tears
Its not because I have lots of fears
its because I cant trust some peers
I think of all the wasted years
that I spent with all those tears
I want my life to come back to me
Instead of me ready to flee
I dont know why Im afraid of my life
But I all I think of is picking up a knife
I stopped myself lots of times
instead I think of the all the times
Some times I just wanna freeze my life
when I think that Im happy again
It hurts me deep inside
thinking of the life I left behind
I look like Im happy on the outside
but on the inside Im truly sad
My mom says that Im truly bad
and that makes me really sad
she says that she doesnt like me very much
It hurts me and I start to clutch.
So Im saying goodbye to the life I have
and hope that I come back as someone who is not sad.