Forever Free

. ~Forever Free~.

I feel so sick and tired I don't want to be here anymore I just want to fall so far and so fast just jump into to a deep black void I want to be so deep that I don't know where it starts and where it ends And never come back I no longer want to be here or anywhere I just want to crawl into myself and shut down this constant ache in my chest just won't go away and I don't want to talk anymore and I don't want to write the writing doesn't help relieve the pressure any longer and I can feel it building and it is just tearing me apart I no longer feel like I used to I know that screaming and yelling is not going to help me either and I know that no one can save me but me and I canâ??t even do that.
Knowing that I can help myself I is just as hard as knowing that no one else can do it either. I need to find a release for this tightness in my chest these thoughts that I have won't help me or my sister I need help and fast any kind of help but will it matter No it will not matter Cause it won't help I'm tired of crying and putting on that happy face. I just want it all to stop. I don't want to feel or hurt anymore. I just want to be... free that is all just free to fly away from my entire world and all my problems and all my mistakes and never return to a place where I can't call it home Just free. Not free for a little while or a day or an hour No forever free.

. ~Forever Free~.