[So often I try to deal with the things I do wrong my own way - I deny, I justify, I blame, I do everything except the thing that I know I should. Yes my proud ego is still a toddler! Thankfully I have a Father who is patience, loving and infinitely forgiving when I finally get around to giving it all up! Where would we all be without Him?]
Dreams are not enough to take me to a better place
Hopes and fears both melt into the sea
The future's bleak when trapped inside my fragile self
My conscience fades when I dwell on only me
Love and joy seem spectres of a misty realm
That curl around my fingers as I reach
Faith seems like an icy pool in summer time
Empty promises when nothing lies beneath
I beat my chest but all it does is hurt me
I scream for help, does it fall on deafened ear?
I rend my clothes and smear myself with ashes
I stumble under load too vast to bear
I curse myself and all that dwells within me...
Then pour it out like gall into Your cup
With trembling hands I stretch my arms out to You
You take from me and bend Your neck to sup
You drink the poison drained from my dark spirit
You swallow it; envelope it in light
The darkness is as nothing when inside You
It's vanquished by Your love there blazing bright
Lifted then, my heart sings with elation
My bitterness, like leaves blown by the wind
Seems nothing when held up against Your beauty
My grievances are petty, I rescind
Repentance is a bitter pill to swallow
But what follows is a blessing full and clear
I tell myself to never lose this moment
I mustn't draw away, I must stay near
