How it all began

One year ago,
I never would have believed,
That we all would have fallen apart
That I'd be feeling so deceived.

We used to be so close,
So happy, so carefree.
But lately it's just been tension,
I never feel at ease.

It all started when my boyfriend and I
Started drifting further apart.
The more I try to sort things out,
The more he'd hurt my heart.

After this, my so called friends
Started treating me like dirt.
I still don't know what I've done wrong
I'm still feeling bruised and hurt.

Things at home got real hard
My mum was getting really sick
I didn't trust anyone anymore
I felt like my life I should quit.

A week later I found out
That my mum had developed cancer
I was in so much distress that I cut myself
I felt it was the only answer

My mum passed away last year
I miss her more than I can say
With everything that had happened
I started cutting more everyday

My life is getting better
New friends I have found
These people treat me with respect
And never put me down.

My family has coped well
With the loss of the one we all loved
Every night I pray before I sleep
And hope she hears me from above.

I'm slowly dealing with my cutting
I know now it's not the way,
to deal with life and all it's problems
I'm now starting to feel okay

This poem was for all you people
Who feel life is at its worst
Remember that things can only get better
No matter how much you feel cursed.