How Does It Make Me Feel

In case you were interested,
In case you wanted to know,
I know somethings
You don't know I know.

I kinda wish I didn't
So I wouldn't have to feel this
But mostly I wish you didn't
So I wouldn't have to feel this.

This feeling hurts me
But that doesn't begin to describe
The sadness it causes
Deep down inside.

How do you think it makes me feel
that you never call me pretty.
Or even say I look nice
I'll do my hair and make up
And still you don't look twice.

How does it make me feel
That you never want to go anywhere with me.
But when I stay, you'll go.
This does affect me
Incase you didn't know.

I remember a long time ago
There was something that you said
That caught my attention
And since has stuck in my head.

You said that thinking and looking
Is just as bad as being unfaithful.
Even the thoughts alone are
Just as untasteful.

What you explained,
I agree with completely.
Every part is true.
So how am I supposed to feel
when thats exactly what you always do.