Tumultuous Waters

Day by day I look and find
Nothing to ease my restless mind
I search for one to share my love
But no such luck from blessings above
Expand my search to cover more ground
But I get lost and none are found
My knees weaken and heart sinks low
Soul diminishing and movements slow
I lay down to go to bed
Fearful thoughts within my head
Will I ever find this love of mine
Or forever will I walk this lonely line
I close my eyes and try to sleep
Imagine my horrors and begin to weep
Thoughts of failure consume my existence
There is no point in persistence
Confidence for posing a front
However I lack the skills to hunt
Constricted by a quicksand of fear
The harder I struggle the worse I appear
The vicious cycle spins in my brain
The entire dilemma driving me insane
Climbing out of an endless pit
But won't have the desire to quit
Hope has thus kept me alive
And no longer shall I deprive
Myself of my own happiness
For long have I been a mess
And even in this dark hour
I have got to find the power
To continue through this maze
Against the wind through the haze
Cause if on this night I had died
I know I'd have been unsatisfied
Without achieving a thing so great
As discovering my one true mate
And living life without regret
No longer feeling I'm upset
Continue with courage and live life best
Upon this conclusion I can rest