Easily Give Up What I Wanted

I'm punished by daylight
And sleep in my eyes
The rage of day
Burns the eyes of mine
And I just want to know
If I live today, will it be our last?
Will you fall silent for no reason
Scared to talk to me
For I have died in my own anxiety
I can't breathe
But you know, but you know
You're stuck without me

Scared of morning
I take my shower
Think about lasting through the day
For I need to be there
I need to be there
A push turns to longing and wanting
I keep fumbling
Like the shadow during the night
And it's not working for me anymore
To have you so far from me
If I couldn't make it how could I ever make it up to you?
Losing breath
I just can't picture myself without you

Moments of pretending
And moments of taking
I listen to the voices in my head
And they keep most of it cushioned
Most of it suppressed
Sometimes the woven wool and thread
Are strand to the point of breaking
And tears are brought to my eyes
Your face folds all of my desires
Yes if it's lies I want I know where to turn
The night brings the cold
And the morning brings the warmth
But I keep missing both

I Sing to myself
The way I use to sing
When I was a child
Never knowing the meanings
Just singing because it felt good
Reminds me of the way you made me feel
Reminds me of the way you make me feel

I laugh at myself
Caught in the rain on the way home
My drudgery is post-poned another walk home
Another walk home