My Being

Why do i put my life in his hands?
my love for him is great,
and yet i fear for his life,
unknowing if he will live or die.
Needing him to hold me,
wanting to hear his soothing words.
I know it won't come true,
all of my wishes and dreams.
Why do i love him?
even when he has lied!
This heart of mine,
has never loved,
never cared.
But it aches to be near him,
and i am saddened everyday,
when i never hear from him.
He is far from me,
yet not far from my heart and soul.
My existance is being held in the balance of my dying lovers heart.