No End To This!

Sitting in this room all alone,
Hardly even moving, just as still as a stone.
Crying my eyes out until my tears have become dry,
But they don't seem to stop, no matter how hard I try.

It hurts to lock it all up inside,
And become very ill because of the excessive amount I've cried.
Questioning myself and feeling constant pain.
Trying to move on but knowing within my heart will remain a stain.

Feeling useless and not knowing what to do?
Feeling miserable and always blue.
My heart is aching,
My body's shaking.

From all the suffering that is never ending.
I can't be happy, So STOP PRETENDING!
Who am I to tell?
When everytime I speak, they think I'm not well.

Wanting to live,
My heart has plenty to share and give,
But why won't it leave me alone,
It has travelled all around my body right through every single bone.

Not knowing what to feel,
It's like living on a spinning wheel.
For how long will I weep?
And when will I have a goodnight's sleep?