Vunerable dismayed

My life is worthless
I've been told by my own family
My hearts bleeding
Forever healing
My soul has no home
I sold it for one chance of happiness which never came
To me this seems like a game
When i walk in the room
Everyone stares
I have panic attacks
Where I'm so scared
I sit at home and cry
All feeling gone numb
I think about what everyone have said and done to me
I try to shout
But nothing comes out
As i lay on my bed
I think about the times i had
When i was younger
But time has past
And years have gone
Now I'm alone
Memory's fade slowly
Through my mind
remembering just this past year
how my dad abused me
How he lied to the court
To protect his own back
Every bad memory
I take a slice of my life
Every drop of blood
I remembered the love

(Please please comment for this has happened to me, i would love to know your honest opinion)