Dear mom*~*

I wrote this poem for my mom, because me and her weren\'t getting along for a while there and i wanted her to know how sorry i was... but now everything is ok!!!
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dear mom,
it\'s me here to say
i am so sorry
i have been acting this way

i have been acting just like
a spoiled rotten brat
it\'s just that i have been dealing
with a lot of crap

it seems like some things
are just getting harder
and at times i don\'t think
i can go much farther

it seems like this weight
is too much to bear
i just need to know
that you will always be there

you don\'t know how many times
i have felt all alone
or how many times
i dread coming back home

because it seems like when i\'m here, all i do is make you mad
and you might not know this,
but i really do feel bad

i know that at times
i do go over the top
but i am trying to control my moods
i\'m really trying to stop

i try to be pleasant
when i come home from school
but faking my happiness
is not that easy to do

at times it is hard
to keep a smile on my face
because this hollow feeling inside
is something i can\'t erase

i know what your thinking:
he was just a stupid guy
but mom, i really loved him,
and it\'s hard to say goodbye

i\'m trying to get over him,
i\'m doing it for you
but sometimes its hard to deliver,
it\'s hard to follow through

i wrote this for you
so you could understand
that i really am trying;
i\'m doing the best i can

and just remember this:
whatever bad things i do
whatever stupid things i say,
i will always love you!! :)