I love him but he loves her so why try

I love him
secretly every thought
and every second we talk
I long to kiss him
I want to hold his hand
and hug him
I want to feel safe within his arms
I love him
my heart is filled with useless facts
for him
and at night wish he were
besides me
All this is so very unrelistic though
because your hers
and your no longer here
you moved and now
Im alone
without you touch my arm
or lend me your jacket when Im cold
I miss the smell of axe and your shampoo
your killer smile... and even
the fake tatoos...
I miss your laugh
and your caring touch
the way you look at me
like Im important
the way I get all giggly
when you smile
All these things
I try to live without
and all these things Ive
lost and survived for a matter of months
I long to email you
but it just wouldnt be right
because you love her
so why should I try

*Bailey... I wish you were here... but your in Hawaii and your hers not mine... everything I've ever wanted with you she has...*