Dead

I have no drive
to keep me alive
I'd rather take a dive
into a 2inch pool
doesn't matter if i survive

will i stay this way forever
Sleepwalk through my life's endeavor
i wish i could do whatever
will i be happy
never

i wish there was more to life
can't feel a thing
but this cold rusted knife
can't feel love so how do i be his wife
i can not put on an act
for the rest of his life

tell me what's the deal
tell me why can't i feel
is any of this real

i know I'm truly dead
though there is no blood
emotions arn't felt but said
just for me i'm guessing

ps i worte this along time ago, i lost someone i love, and this guy asked me to marrie him and i did care anymore