You Bed

You bed me and this is in lies
You bed me and ignore my cries
You bed me in deceit and hurt
You bed me and itâ??s stuck thereâ?¦ in my throat
Itâ??s in there and itâ??s struggling to come out
My words and pleas for help trapped in my mouth
I hate you more than you think you love me
I love you more than you say love me
I HATE THE IDEA THAT YOU EVEN HATE ME
In my heart I know your hurting me
In my heart I know this love really isnâ??t real
You bed me as master and treat me as slave after
You say you love me and tell me it isnâ??t completelyâ?¦ I wish I were smarter
You donâ??t love me and itâ??s now I can feel it
I shouldâ??ve let you go when you wanted it
You bed me as your wife and then treat me as your friend
I know Iâ??m no longer the one you love so you donâ??t have to pretend
Iâ??m sad again but I will not cry for you one more time
I cannot cry for you againâ?¦ not this time
You know the effect you have on me and how your words cut through me
You bed me but I know itâ??ll be sadness
You bed me but I still hope that it will help this
You bed me, belittle me and break me
You hurt me, hate me and harbor these lies
Iâ??m in love with a dream still yet to be
Iâ??m in love with a façade our relationship and me
Iâ??m bleeding for the times youâ??ve bed me
Iâ??m bleeding for a love Iâ??m now unable to see
You couldnâ??t love me nowâ?¦ Itâ??s true
But why bed me and make me believe in a love I once knew?
You bed me under hate and falseness
You bed me under anger and likeness
You bed me and hate me
Imagine Iâ??m someone new
Someone that you could love now
Not me because that loveâ??s already gone
You tell me this with words that pierce me, haunt me an kill me inside
You tell me this with vengefulness yet with indifference that kills the love that was once mine
Iâ??m in love with an idea that wonâ??t materialize
Iâ??m in for a pain that I just wonâ??t realize
Iâ??m in this bed of nails
Each sinking into me as my story plays
Hurting, Bleeding, forever a lie