I'll Never Be Ok

Sitting here just wondering why
my tears keep falling like rain
seeing you with her
is the worse kind of pain

why do I go there
just to watch you be so happy
holding her hand and laughing
knowing that it should be me

I'd give anything
just to be her for a day
so you could be mine again
there's so much I want to say

I still see the look in your eyes
I know you still think about our past
the one I thought was my future
that was always gonna last

I think about you all the time
what happened with me and you
why it could never work out
do you still love me too

you were my first love
and you just broke my heart in the end
I guess what were you supposed to do
you were my brothers best friend

but none of that mattered to me
all I needed was your heart
but you took that from me
and I just fell apart

I wish I could just forget our past
over you I cried so many tears
we've been through so much together
been in love with you for so many years

you're with her and I'm with him
but it was never supposed to be that way
meant to be you and me together
guess now I'll never be okay