Black Sheep

Hey everyone. i wrote this when i was really angry one day. ive lost the rest of it, i think my mum found it and threw it away. i really liked it, so i want to put this here while its still saved. it was 4 written pages, ive got about three here. ok, i made up the ending, i remembered a bit..

Well thank you family
What can I say
Youve just made my day
Infact
I take that back
Youve made my whole life,
Hell.
You pushed me around
Ignored me when I fell to the ground
You were never part of my highs
And you could never tell my lows
It just comes to show
That your family
Can be your worst enemy
But its ok
You only broke a lost girls spirit
Just forget it
She wasnt like you anyway
You were all perfect
But prick her and she bled
Make her angry and her face would glow red
The same as when she cried
After all those times she hurt inside
Not that you knew
You didnt have a clue
You just saw her as an obstacle
And object in the way
Of your stomach being full
You guys were supposed to stand by me
Help me
And god forbid, love me
I was always there for you
But when I needed the support
Youd never show through
I kept your secrets
I took the blame
While I couldve just as easily played your
Win-win game
Not that I knew about it until recently
Being naive is a gift yet a curse
I always think the best will come from the worst
So when you failed to help me
I just thought you were shy
And I knew soon you would try
So I smiled
And I waited
While conflicting thoughts debated
But still I stayed true
To you
And for all of it, you paid me well
In hurt and hate
Spiteful glares
Come to think of it
You gave me more than my fair share
But you didnt care
For your reward was a bargain
So you rewarded me time and time again
And worst of all, I bought it
It didnt cost much at the start
But it built up
Piece by piece
Part by part
Until a ton of bricks fell on my heart
And when this happened
It caused an explosion in my brain
An explosion of confusion and pain
You crushed my hope in happiness
You smothered any trust I had left
So many voices in my head..
"family are supposed to be until the end.."
ah, but they never started my friend
well, maybe it was a mistake
a mistake?!
After every smile they couldnt see was fake?
They never gave, theyd only take
Even in selfishness theyd take the cake!!

dont be foolish simple girl
you put it in their hands,
and they still destroyed your world.
Cant you see
That ever since this begun
Theyve only been looking out for number one.

I felt so much shame for thinking better
Of the ones who started this vendetta
They put me down
And left me be
Until the time came
That they needed me
But as soon as they were content
Again, id be their anger vent
Well again, thankyou
I must admit
You had me fooled for a while
Just like I had you fooled
Every time id smile
I dont know whether
I should leave
coz i know if i did
you would never greive
but if i did stay
live through this hell
day after day
all i can do is aspire
to become something higher
than the trash that you all are.
Hey, maybe it is possible
to make something out of nothing
But no matter what i do
what values i lose or keep
how im affected by those words
that were so cheap
we all know that the flock is better off
without the black sheep