Confessions

Confessions of my lie,
Im cutting again, my friend,
and Im again wanting to die.
Yet, I cant get this to end.

This pain is too much to withstand.
Please just let me fall.
Things are not going as planned.
I just keep building up the walls.

All I get is never-ending humilliation,
for who I am and what I do.
I fall into desperation
because everything is true.

I know Ill never be perfect,
with my internal wars
and self-regret.
So I go back to my drawers...

I go back to my blade
and release my pain.
Maybe Ill be free someday,
and escape these horrid chains.

Until then,
here Ill stay.
Waiting for when,
comes that day....